it's nearer to hiatus

T__________T

I don't know what to write, they finally end their promotion.

And, God give me chance to watch them for not the last time but dunno when will i see them again.

God bless me and my way to see them.

God please, please :"(

Happy Birthday, Lee Donghae♥ ♥♥ ♥!!!!

no need to copy-paste your biography from wikipedia, right?.
Everyone knows you already. The super little star, whose name is Aiden Lee.
The most awkward young man i've ever known. He's so quite yet a cry baby. How can someone with a lot of muscular cries easily? that's you donghae-ah.
Since i met you last March, it's so hard for me to not write you in possessive pronoun. You're not mine. Lol i was kinda realize it late,no matter how close you're to me, you can't be reached. So i've decided our relationship will be only fans to idol. That's what supposed to be. I'm tryin' okay?

So this is the 3rd times i celebrated your b'day. and I really mean it, really. Lol eventhough you wouldn't known it and even read it, i keep celebrating yours and writing a letter once a year. I look like an idiot, don't I? Nope, this year i'm not a babo because i'm in level where i can differentiate between idol and fans.

Lee donghae, i know you already has a girlfriend. Some says she is Yoona. And i was like grateful and speechless. Lol, you hit the jack point, dude!

Lee donghae, you should keep in your mind that your father watches you from a far, but his soul stay in yours. That's why you'll always feel so close to him. And remember you have your fans here for you. Thanks for treating us so well but don't treat us that well because we'll grow up hunting you to marry us. ok kidding.

Lee donghae, thanks for being such a great idol with a soft heart. Cry easily never mean you're weak. Nope, sometimes it's because a person's heart is too soft to be hurted. And it's definitely yours, right?

Lee donghae, please be happy living your life. I'll send my pray for you since you has given me such a light on my dark life. Seriously, if there's no you and your hyungs, i don't know what to do to heal my self.

Lee donghae, promise that you'll always smile. Act like a kid, never get old. Be yourself no matter where you at. Promise that if someday you're no longer Super Junior's Donghae, you'll be back to yourself. But i know that day wouldn't happen because you'll forever stay in SJ, right?

Lee donghae, please compose a lot of good songs, and write a lot of good words. I love your songs, i love how it becomes a cool ones. I don't know to whom you dedicate your songs to, but please, keep producing songs and lyrics. And in the future you can have a solo album which contains your song. I'm grateful if you are.

Lee donghae, i think that's all that i can write for you. Because it's nearing 00.00 kst and i'm in urge to watch Running Man lol kidding, but you can guarantee my support and ♥ for you will never last. Tee-hee, keep shining bro!!

a cry baby forever 6th years old Lee Donghae, i'm a fan of your weakness.
I promise there will be another and more celebrations for you. Please stay strong until it reaches your limit and there, your dream will be come true.

-sincerely, your number 1238904848494028482 fans-

random thing

ok long time no write :(
so sorry i haven't continued the second part of my trip, i feel like losing interest to continue it.
By the way tomorrow i have an english mid term test and here i am writing a new entry.

I just feel like i have a lot to say. If i throw these trashes on twitter, people never seem to like my always blabbering mouth.
I always feel like if i tell stories to other people, i feel like giving them another problem. So I come out with an idea of writing since Literature coming out as the 2nd rank of what should i gonna be. Mind my grammar, would you?

I only able to writer this short random thing, gonna write so many stories in the upcoming post, but i don't want to promise you, because Me, and my interest always change within a second.

Goodbye, Sleep tight.
and you, sleep really really tight, hoobae-nim.

a Super Trip

Well, sebenernya ane mau bikin post-an ini berbulan bulan yang lalu, tepatnya 3 bulan yang lalu. Yap, karna `trip` ini ane jalanin bulan Maret.

Sebenarnya ini bukan bener bener trip because I went to this country just to watch super show. What a waste sebenarnya, tp begimana lagi, we went on a school time -..-

Friday, March 18th '11

Akhirnya kita nyampe di Malaysia. In such a short period. Why? karna waktu itu ane baru aja menutup mata di atas pesawat, rasanya cuma beberapa menit udah nyampe aja #lebay. Baiklah, kami berlima turun di LCCT, a low coast airport buat pesawat pesawat semacam `aira*ia` haha karna kami masih kecil gak ada duit naek `garud*`. Tapi ga penting sih, toh nyampe juga dengan selamat di Malaysia hahaha. Trus naik bus ke mana itu ke KL Sentral. We decided to take our luggage at hostel that we already rent first. So, based on @semangkaa 's map, we had to take monorail going to Bukit Bintang. Bukit Bintang is where our hostel took place. Then finally we arrive at Bukit Bintang station. Abis keluar dari stasiunnya, kita nyari nyari A&W deket sana karna kata org hostelnya, hostelnya itu pas disebelah A&W. Kita jalan lurus beberapa detik dan BBAM!!!!. We saw a small yet dirty(?) building didepan mata kita. And I was like "awwwwww" is this our hostel? Kita jalan semakin dekat mendekati hostel tersebut, takut takut mistaken. Eh abis liat nama hostelnya "*a**di**" eh bener itu hostelnya! Karna kita udah takut banget ngeliat bangunannya, kita pun memutuskan untuk gak masuk dulu dan malah ke M'cD. Di McD yang super rame, kita semakin galau. Ide ide bermunculan, dan kita memutuskan melihat sekitar, nyari hotel/hostel yang better.

Abis selesai makan #yangsebenernyabelom, kita keluar deh, keliling2 itu Bukit Bintang. Tapi Bukit Bintang itu bener bener keren. It was feel like in the center of city. Dan setelah capek, kita gak nemu hostel yang lain, trus dengan berani kita ambil keputusan "baiklah apapun yang terjadi, kita kan cuman mau tidur aja, gak spending our times disana", dan kita bravely balik dan I discovered something. WE SAW WRONG BUILDING. Jadi bangunan di sana itu bener bener rapet rapet sampe pintunya ada tuh satu pintu bagi dua gitu. Akhirnya we feel more relieve, naik tangga dengan semangat. Kita dapet kamar 6 beds, yang kamarnya nyaman walaupun kecil hihi. Karna udah jam 2-an, kita memutuskan pergi dan naik lagi monorail ke KL sentral. Waktu itu pas cek twitter anak anak SJ-nya udah berangkat dr Incheon. Korea-Malay needs 2 hour. Pas nyampe KL sentral, kita rasa kita udah telat banget makanya naik kereta express yang super mahal. Tiketnya 35 Ringgit atau +- 105.000 idr. Duh demi syuju ini ;A;. Dan keretanya yang express menghantarkan kita ke KLIA. Gilak, bandaranya super mewah cuy. Pas kita nyampe udah banyak banget ELF yang nunggu jadi kita gabung ke mereka. Rasanya udah nunggu 2 jam tapi ga ada tanda2 anak SJ nya keluar. Tapi disana kayak ada security2 gitu jadinya yah kita agak yakin kalo mereka bakalan dateng. EH TERNYATA! di twitter udh ada foto2 mereka keluar dari bandara. Holyshit. They were coming from the other gate yang cuman sedikit org bs kesana. Malah ada kabar mereka langsung naik bus pas turun dari pesawat, tapi ada org yang ngambil foto mereka lagi jalan kayak di lorong2 bandara gitu.

Yasudahlah, semua ELF yang nunggu disana ada yang kecewa, tapi ada yang tetep nunggu. Karna itu udah magrib jadilah kami berlima solat di musholanya dengan perasaan super kecewa. Kami capek nunggu tapi mereka malah gak nongol. Yaudah abis solat kami ke Berjaya Times Square naik bus abis tu ambil monorail jurusan Imbi. Disana katanya ada toko2 Kpop gitu. Udah agak lama muter muter, Ketemu!!! Gila dewa itu tokonya super lengkap, tidak seperti di Indonesia -__-'. Nama tokonya My Star. And I bought some stuffs kayak hp strap buat oleh2 sekalian, harganya lumayan murah daripada di Indonesia. And we bought SJ t-shirt yang print-an chibi vegie mereka ^^. Nah selesai shopping -_- kita pulang dan siap menanti hari esok. Tomorow's gonna be a long daaaaaaaay \m/

*bersambung ya, capek nulisnya -_-*

" Whats ironic? Lying to yourself. You fake smile & try to forget but deep inside its killing u. Dont fake your smile, its ok not to be fine. - @Tiffanywilliam"

This quote suits me well. I don't like to fake my smile. I mean, if i really want to smile, i'll smile. But if i don't, even in front of people i love, i won't smile. Fake smile doesn't mean you're good. Why are you killing yourself to make you look okay in front of other people? A smile worth for something. Not to cover a broken heart.